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a philological litany of sorts

There is junk science, 
wherein endless experiments are conducted
 to prove things 
that were perfectly obvious to start with.

There is pseudo-science,
 wherein something not obvious,
 but obviously fruitcake, 
is studied
 as if anything could come of it.

There is pathological science, 
wherein the researchers refuse to give up, 
even after the nonsense they are espousing
 has proved chimerical, 
because 
they want the unavailable result so badly. 
(Example, the search for extraterrestrial life.)

There is cargo-cult science, 
in which relations between cause and effect
 have been too casually assumed,
 and an immense research establishment built on top, 
like the bamboo runways 
and control towers of the South Sea islanders.
 (Most medical research is like this.)

There is fraudulent science, 
already mentioned, 
wherein the search
 is chiefly for misleading anecdotes 
to scare people into paying more taxes, 
until they aren’t scared anymore,
 put on yellow vests,
 and riot in the streets of Paris.

There is zombie science 
(example neo-Darwinism), 
in which a theory 
devised in the age of phrenology
 is kept alive 
by
 academic solidarity alone, 
and no stake through the heart 
can kill it.










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existential serendipity

  I Would Not Be Here               

I would not be here
If I hadn't been there
I wouldn't been there
if I hadn't just turned
on Wednesday the third
in the late afternoon
got to talking with George
who works out in the back
and only because
he was getting off early
to go see a man
at a Baker Street bookstore
with a rare first edition
of steamboats and cotton
a book he would never
have sought in the first place
had he not been inspired
by a fifth grade replacement
school teacher in Kirkwood
who was picked just at random
by some man on a school board
who couldn't care less
and she wouldn't been working
if not for her husband
who moved two months prior
to work in the office
of a man he had met
while he served in the army
and only because
they were in the same barracks
an accident caused
by a poorly made roster
mixed up on the desk
of a sergeant from Denver
who wouldn't be in
but for being in back
in a car he was riding
before he enlisted
that hit a cement truck
and killed both his buddies
but a back seat flew up there
and spared him from dying
and only because
of the fault of a workman
who forgot to turn screws
on a line up in Detroit
'cause he hollered at Sam
who was hateful that morning
hung over from drinking
alone at a tavern
because of a woman
he wished he'd not married
he met long ago
at a Jewish bar mitzvah
for the son of a man
who had moved there from Jersey
who managed the drugstore
that sold the prescription
that cured up the illness
he caught way last summer
he wouldn't have caught
except . . .

.........................John Hartford













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primary ontology

For me, reason is openness to reality,
 a capacity to seize and affirm it in all its factors.
 For that other teacher, reason is the "measure" of all things,
 and a phenomenon becomes true only when it can be directly demonstrated.




                                                                       .....Luigi Giussani





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Un Canadien Errant

Un Canadien errant,
Banni de ses foyers,
Parcourait en pleurant
Des pays étrangers.

Un jour, triste et pensif,
Assis au bord des flots,
Au courant fugitif
Il adressa ces mots:

"Si tu vois mon pays,
Mon pays malheureux,
Va, dis à mes amis
Que je me souviens d'eux.

"Ô jours si pleins d'appas
Vous êtes disparus,
Et ma patrie, hélas!
Je ne la verrai plus!

"Non, mais en expirant,
Ô mon cher Canada!
Mon regard languissant
Vers toi se portera..."


















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phuq the secularist slobs

I am bewildered today by what I  observe as the tendency for conservative catholics to sell-out the church by simply agreeing to the latest news on sexual misconduct and failures of leadership it seems almost everyone capitulates as if to say o of course it's true it's been reported now it can't be false it can't be fake news no way and then they speak about it all as if it's a done deal it happened we're guilty...it is amazing...does anyone stop to consider that possibly you're capitulating to the devil...the devil succeeds with every affirmation of the report...only bill Donohue seems amongst the spokespersons out there only he seems to say there needs be some honesty here there needs be a sense of fairness...only Donohue seems to know we must weigh the force of evil for what it is...I cannot help but surmise that the church is being castigated for what she believes and holds as good...she stands for an integrity that is far superior to the ideals promulgated by anti-church atheistic ideologues...and thus there is this rage against her...the culture of death is screaming blood


on this feast of the exaltation of the cross I simply pray with our lord forgive them for they know not what they do


















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more in the way of conservative sentiment

here's another thing


I guess I knew something of what might be understood as a conservative intellectual tradition but my reading had not taken me there I had never read a book by William f. buckley...in fact I still have not...o I take that back I read a short suspense novel he wrote...somehow I was led to believe that conservative thinkers and writers were to be avoided and the progressive and daring efforts were what made literature and writing good...now i've read two books by roger scruton and I actually love the guy he's great and I've read a memoir by Russell kirk and I loved it I thought this guy is amazing ...and while I'm sure the conservative bent holds down a minority place in the world of literature and politics I'm finding the critical observations to be more exact and more balanced than anything the left or the avante-garde has to offer...only late have I come to realize that my favorite European writer Claudio Magris is definitely in the conservative ranks of writers and cultural thinkers...it occurs to me that the conservative thinkers hold within themselves the key to the hermeneutic of continuity they believe they inherit more than they produce and that the efforts to achieve beauty and truth are bestowed down through the generations and we are arrogant to dismiss our obligation as thinking people we in effect owe it to our intellectual ancestors to heed their warnings to peer into the depths they looked into to admire the well thought out deductions from which some sense of the complexity and tragedy and beauty of humanity can always be deduced and measured against


I have left behind the left left it in left field left it for something better than the left left leftist leftwing liberal leanings I no longer wish to entertain the limits of individual freedom or think about some inherent rights based on one's delusions of self ...if the left is about some insidious liberation of women I am adamantly opposed...it is not a good thing and women reveal the stupidity of their shifted status in the world every day despite the effort to portray women as the intelligent leaders and up to the skills of men which is a ridiculous myth women will never outdo men in anything requiring brute strength or athletic prowess nor will they ever attain equality in high level abstract thinking required of the logical practical sciences...if the left is about liberal license for sick and devious sexual practices I am on the right I am conservative....marriage is about marriage I don't give a flying phuq what anyone says people have always married with one central purpose in mind...to be ignorant or defy that reality is to cast humanity into an idealized mold from which I for one will encourage everyone I can find to run from to not submit to the new mold of individualized liberty in the realm of sexuality just don't


insofar as marx and freud have left their marks on the left I am hellbent against the left and want nothing to do with any of it anymore psychology I have come to believe is a scam an intellectual insult with nothing to offer and the phuqqing Marxists can all go phuq themselves as far as I'm concerned they with their demented visions of a new liberated man liberated by his own means liberated by revolution bringing down the oppressive institutions of church and state and remaking his own world in the contours of reason and positive thought man for himself by himself in control of every aspect every dimension of the human realm...they do not seem to know that the only liberty we can be assured of is the liberty of the cross...therefore I am a conservative catholic... I do not want what the left wants I do not want it at all ...the left is bereft


the biggest tragedy in modern catholicism is the wholesale capitulation to the principles of modernism...the conservative in me is insulted by the compromise


HumanaeVitae is the most important statement to come from rome in the last 500 years...and it has been suppressed and ignored by the catholic left in a form of collective cowardice and stupidity...only the conservative minded thinkers and theologians have been able to preserve the wisdom therein...it is my hope that the new younger generations will take hold of the wisdom...they will be conservative when they do....drastically counter-cultural...but conservative


I'm finding that I rather enjoy being conservative
























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confessions of a lifetime conservative

it seems most apropos this rainy monday morning as august hurls to a close schools are gearing up again farmers are thinking in terms of harvest that I should return to this blog which I started in good intention started to explore some of what is thought in the world and why what I think and where thought leads obviously I branched out some and other blogs took on forms of life but virtually without notice...what I wish to divulge and then perhaps substantiate and then perhaps even lend rational argument toward is the change that has taken place in my thought and beliefs since beginning this cyber experiment some 10 yrs ago



we all know the world for what it is
no need to disregard those words
but we do ignore the truth
and in its place
place our perceptions and imaginings
skimpy reflections of a shattered mirror

reality is too much
unless taken with doses of prayer
or sitting silent for long moments
or even with the glass of amber liquid
on ice
but even then we admit deeply to ourselves
if not to anyone else
it is too much

i have only wished to sing
and though my voice cracks
and the loose gravel in my throat rattles the tune
i will not reserve my heart
you may not like the song
but don't ignore the singer
for god's sake

this was the first making I made at the beginning of things in april of 2007 it was then 10 yrs ago or more almost 11 or more who knows about time that I'd been deliberating about a mode of thought consistent with the formal demands of the new technology one where my penchant for punctuationless writing  could be developed and sustained and my thoughts could thereby be presented to the curious world in a mode of immediacy and my laziness could thereby be ignored and the whole mess would just look clever...lots of luck I should have said to myself back then....


yet it would be ignorant to assume that some evident growth did not happen for amidst all that I have presented on this blog and in light of the conversations that did ensue on this blog and others namely Kirby olsons' blog Lutheran surrealism which was a cognitive hog space of lengthy conversations I'm reminded of Og the king of bashan but that will get me nowhere what I really wish to say is that through all of this blog log slogging in some marginale social realms of thinking and expressing thought I have gone through a definite transformation...when I started to write on this blog and elsewhere I think it would be safe to say that I shared most of the then liberal political views of things social justice and lassaizze faire free individuals suspicion of older stale traditions look to the new the possible...now it may be obvious it may be surprising I don't know but now I must say I recognize my social political temperament as solidly conservative I share little if anything with the liberal left either politically or culturally...what's more I think it safe to say that it was not so much transformation but a mode of conversion insofar as I became aware of something in myself that had always been there but either I did not know myself that well or that i had not plumbed the greater significance of what I believe and why.......


thus    ' a bewildering search  '    set the stage for some poignant self-awareness


can I enumerate or describe this so called   " change of mind "....


this I will do perhaps tomorrow for it is the nature of the search to not wear itself out
the search will be as serious tomorrow as it is today....


the problem lingers
at least the question must be asked
why am i a conservative?

while i will admit to a certain amount of ignorance in regard to myself i must also point to a life time of shrewd hard and always humorous observations even when tending to the cynical in my judgments in the 70s who wasn't for no war civil rights free love and ecology those were the big issues for middle class white kids smoking pot and taking life on a lark....yet no doubt now i have grown...if i recall correctly my inner enlightenment first corresponds to a moment of embarking on a pilgrimage now it could be said that it began before that but the correspondence of a shared journey brings the conversion into context....as it is my self conscious turn toward self admitted conservative causes is associated with a friendship and what might appear odd about this is that friendship is not now based inherently upon conservative principles i would even go so far as to say    'my friend is not a conservative'    but my discussions with her were the first hard awarenesses i had that i was leaning on conservative values as i pleaded with her begged pushed her a little emotionally danced with her in my excited effort to see her into the catholic way of things now it should go without saying that i would have remained friends with her had she not waded the tiber so to speak but since she has my delight seems to know no bounds and i find myself wondering what indeed was i leaning on in my apologies for the faith many of which seemed wrenched from me in the throes of love but who am i to judge the lover owning a region of freedom no other man comprehends unless he too has known the region but i found myself leaning on thomas aquinas for instance my go to guy when it comes to reasonable thinking while she resorted to karl rahner someone i have read and respect but he signals a bit too much of the new optimism of thought whereas aquinas to whom rahner pays considerable due remains sober and settled in the erotic dedication to the pursuit of truth i'm probably diverging from the point i first intended to make as is my wont however i will say that that is my awareness of the first subtle shift

a notable moment which exemplifies my rather adamant establishment within the walls of conservative thinking can be articulated in my political awareness which due to my involvement in the multilogue known as lutheran surrealism i came to the troubling self discovery that i am not an american i do not identify with the american project i do not approve of the white anglo saxon protestant stupidity that has passed for far too long as important political momentum...i don't remember exactly when it was but it was during the presidency of barack obama and i suppose i could zero in on one particular legislative act that pushed me over the edge for lack of a better term...i had already taken a firm stand against the supreme courts' liberal assumption of being the collective arbiters of life and offer a liberty that no human being is entitled to in any circumstances whatsoever...that being the moral issue associated with the ethical issue in regards to the human act of medical abortion....i still maintain that it is a mark of horrible savagery amid every presupposition of progress in our present civilization....that would be enough i suppose to qualify me as a conservative but i still maintained for many years that i was a pro-life democrat and proud of it  (  i was a bit stupid i must admit  )....for in a deeper sense it was known to me even then that i detested medical birth control and the revision of institution of marriage away from sacramental determinants


when the public discussion of gender liberty became a thing i noted inwardly that it was the second offense that i wanted nothing to do with any of it and i still don't call me retrograde call me hopeless i will not now or ever acknowledge or even associate intellectually or otherwise the word "marriage"  with the inherently selfish physical preoccupation with samesame homohomo lezbolezbo sexuality no way jose' i will not play i'll take my ball and walk away i have nothing more to say....but still i thought well i want freedom for desperadoes trying to find a way in the world and i thought health care should be if not free very inexpensive so i suppose i hung in there thinking the stupid sex stuff would work itself out


do i play cognitive political baseball with political standards

three strikes

i gave it three strikes

the third strike was
when barack obama signed into  law the right and supposed obligation of women to bear arms into war...it was there and then that i proclaimed  NO PHUQQING WAY...and i am still offended and horrified by the prospect which is held out there as being somehow progressive when i think it is the most ridiculous and atrocious state of affairs since the amazons lit upon their sorry victims

since my gut reaction to this lamebrain move i have had to come to terms with what may have appeared to many as misogyny ...when in fact it is a revulsion that is expressed in clear terms when i shout from the street corner   I DETEST FEMINISM  in all its modes and means i hate it i want nothing to do with it i am fervently pissed off at the feminists and i will maintain and prove with intelligent argument just how utterly inane and stupid and literally antiprogressive their preoccupations in the cultural and political realms really are

so i suppose that's it in a nutshell
i have renounced my american citizenship i will not vote i will stand apart
from the illusions of progress and argue adamantly from the conservative grove of trees

thomas aquinas
pro-life
anti-feminist
anti-supreme court
anti-state incursion.... the veritable arrogance of presuming to define or should we say redefine the word marriage according to the sick and perverse physical preoccupations of a drastic minority

i want to insist on the social value indeed the necessity of the family and the home
i do not want women to carry guns into war
i believe sexual intercourse is a great gift and possibility for many people
and it should never be dissociated  from children...from new life
i hold to the one holy catholic and apostolic bottom line of christianity
and i take those words rather literally
i continue to believe that a very good case can be made for everyone being catholic
(  if they'd just open up their goddam minds a little )
and roman catholic..yes why not



that's enough for now
it is to this moment that my
bewildering search has arrived
and now i will reflect more on this state of affairs that finds me firmly
in the conservative camp

perhaps i can revive some original spirit on this blog
even an audience of one would be a marked improvement


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i own this song

You better split the scene , take what you need, the past is past Whatever you must keep, you better grab it fast
your orphan girl's in the corner with her gun Cryin' like a fire in the sun Look out pal the saints are marchin' through Ohh and it's all over now, Baby Blue This highway is for gamblers, you better use good sense Take what you have gathered from each coincidence The empty-handed painter from your streets Is drawing surreal patterns on your sheets The sky of blue is melting all over you Ohh and it's all over now, Baby Blue All your seasick sailors, look how they are rowing home Your reindeer navigators, they're parked outside of Nome.
The vagabond who keeps rapping at your door Is standing in the clothes that you once wore Strike another match, light one up, let's start anew yeah it's all over now, Baby Blue Leave your stepping stones behind, something else calls for you Pity pays no mind, no one will follow you Your lover fool is walking out the door dragging all his blankets across your floor And that fancy Persian rug is moving right under you Ohh and it's all over now, Baby Blue








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it's all over now baby blue

You better split the scene, take what you need, the past is past Whatever you wanna keep, you better grab it fast
 your orphan girl in the corner with her gun is cryin' like a fire in the sun Look out mama,  the saints are marching through Ohh and it's all over now, Baby Blue The highway is for gamblers, better use good sense Take what you have gathered from coincidence The empty-handed painter from your streets Is drawing crazy patterns on your sheets The sky of blue is melting over you Ohh it's all over now, Baby Blue All your seasick sailors, they are rowing home Your reindeer navigators, they are parked outside of Nome The vagabond who's rapping at your door Is standing in the clothes that you once wore Strike another match,  light one up. let's start anew Ohh because it's all over now, Baby Blue Leave your stepping stones behind, something calls for you Pity pays no mind, they will not follow you Your lover fool has just walked through the door He's dragging  all his blankets across your floor and your fancy Persian rug is moving right under you Ohh and it's all over now, Baby Blue

bobby zimmerman

i'm bewildered as to the meaning of this lyrical masterpiece

of course

i'm bewildered by the meaning of much of dylan's lyricism

my tendency is to conclude

that he wrote nonesense

for the most part

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las palabras poesas dormir

              somniloquy soliloquy                  




found poem # 965


(  you can make poetry out of anything, really  )










Sleep talking, or somniloquy, is
 the act of speaking during sleep.
 It's a type of parasomnia --
an abnormal behavior
that takes place during sleep.
It's a very common occurrence
 and is not usually considered a medical problem.




The nighttime chatter may be harmless,
or it could be graphic, even R rated.
Sometimes, listeners find the content offensive or vulgar.
Sleep talkers normally speak for no more than 30 seconds per episode,
but some people sleep talk many times during a night.


The late-night diatribes may be exceptionally eloquent,
or the words may be mumbled and hard to decipher.
Sleep talking may involve simple sounds
 or long,  involved speeches.
Sleep talkers usually seem to be talking to themselves.
But sometimes,
they appear
    to carry on conversations with others.


They may whisper,
or they might shout.


If you
      share a bedroom     
          with someone who talks
                              in his or her sleep, 
                                    you might not be getting
                                                      enough shut-eye.




Many people talk in their sleep.
( nice to be part of a group  )


Half of all kids
between the ages of 3 and 10 years old
 carry on conversations while asleep,
and a small number of adults -- about 5% --
keep chit-chatting after they go to bed.


 The utterances can take place occasionally or every night.




 A 2004 poll showed that
more than 1 in 10 young children
converse in their sleep more than a few nights a week.






The utterances can take place occasionally or every night.




You might think that sleep talking occurs during  dreaming.  sheesh. 
But scientists still are not sure
if such chatter
is linked to nighttime reveries. 
oh my


The talking can occur in any stage of sleep.
.....apparently
Sleep talking usually occurs by itself and is most often harmless.
....thank god for that


However, in some cases,
it might be a sign
of a more serious sleep disorder or health condition.


......small alarm goes off.....




  REM sleep behavior disorder (RBD)
and sleep terrors
 are two  types of sleep disorders
 that cause some people to shout during sleep.


Sleep terrors, also called  night terrors,  
usually involve frightening screams, thrashing, and kicking.
It's hard to wake someone having a sleep terror.


Children with sleep terrors usually sleep talk and sleepwalk.


It is a good idea
to see a sleep specialist
 if your sleep talking
 occurs suddenly as an adult
 or if it involves intense fear,
screaming, or violent actions.


you must walk the talk


You might also consider seeing a doctor if unconscious chatter
is interfering with your sleep -- or that of your roommates.


If you think your child has sleep problems,
make an appointment with your pediatrician.


A sleep specialist
will ask you
how long
you've been talking
in your sleep.


You'll
have
 to
ask
your
 bed
partner,
roommate --
even
your
parents --  ( who are both recently deceased  )
 this
 question.




Keep in mind,
you may have started sleep talking in childhood.


There are no tests needed to diagnose sleep talking.


(  another way of saying that when someone hears you you've passed the test )


However, your doctor may order tests, such as a  sleep   study  
  or sleep recording (polysomnogram),
if you have signs of another sleep disorder.




gee,  maybe I should just go the polysomnogram route
there's a chance I'm missing something quite profound




......I haven't blogged over here at this ancient blog in quite sometime
perhaps if I don't fall asleep i'll pick up on the stream where I left off
....bewildered no less....drooling words


























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